beginning to see beyond the horizon.

have you ever walked away from something simply because God asked you to? there was nothing wrong with it, in fact it’s an amazing thing.

this week i let my life coaching company know that i am stepping out of my role and it makes no sense because it’s my favorite job. i’ve essentially been working 3 jobs for 3 years + being a stay at home mom for 2 of those years. as judah gets older + we hope to keep adding to our number, young living keeps growing & i continue coaching, we knew there needed to be a change in my investments. i couldn’t keep doing it all well for myself or the people i was trying to help. 

you see this company, this team, this curriculum i coach, it was used to change the trajectory of my life back in 2016.

i was lost in my vocation and identity. a swirling hamster wheel from one job to the next.

I was lost in who i was and what i could i offer, unable to articulate my story. my story, my life, my identity, my confidence, my purpose....all made sense through this course. i wanted to be a part of it moving forward. it healed so much of my mental and spiritual life (paired with counseling) that i had to be a part of what they were doing so i became a certified coach to take others through the curriculum (which i’ll still continue doing) and got hired on for systems/operations. 

i never thought i’d quit. i thought i’d go to my grave in young living + younique because they were the perfect meshing in work for my story. my core woundings (poor body + mind health) turned my core callings but it seems God had a better plan. a few months ago i started to feel the stir to step more into young living. when i first got my kit in sept 2017 and my friend encouraged me to jump in the biz to at least get free products monthly i had no vision that it would be what it is now. at all. i also didn’t really have an interest in that either. i just wanted to feel better & if we didn’t have to come out of pocket for those products then i was in. 

i had no idea that the story God was writing in me through younique was going to be used 3 years later, here for young living. i had no idea i’d have a care in the world about growing with my team in young living. i had no idea that i’d be leaving the core team at younique. i had no idea when i thought i’d be working with younique forever that it was really the foundation for my future. to lead others in the same freedom within their vocation. to help them articulate their stories & finding their own identity. designing a life around that purpose. restoring the places that have been in ruins. rebuilding walls that have been torn down. walking in confidence that they are one of a kind with a unique assignment. 

isn’t this like God? an upside down kingdom. a different plan than ours. i’m walking away from a paycheck that’s certain. it feels illogical with no legitimate good reason other than a renewed vision, yet it all makes sense like a lightbulb has gone off of “oh wow, this is what He was building”. i could only see bits and pieces and couldn’t see how the whole room fit together but now i am beginning to. i asked when i turned 30 in july for a deeper trust and faith in God and i’m definitely getting it here in this new transition.